be
empty of my own thoughts and desires and to be a recipient of
special consciousness. I also lived a really good 1930's life,
a la the Norman Rockwell paintings. Marriage and children and
friends and singing and life in the Art Museum gave balance to
any difficulty that arose. The mature years brought me to want to know the Holy. I just kept wondering about the beginning of things and how it all happened. A prayer was answered when a true human being, Sheikh Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (Ral) arrived in Philadelphia from Ceylon. He gave me the dimensions of Clarity and Carefulness that made useful the early gift of that special consciousness. He offered all the tools of the Qutb, and continues to explain the enigmas of life, even now.
